when i was younger i was raped by someone very close to me. that person is my father. i dwell on it every single day of my life. i’m not too sure what to do with myself anymore. i have to see him every day of my life. i can never find words to tell him what he did to me. i don’t want to see a therapist. i don’t want to tell my mother. i don’t know what i want. well, other than getting these thoughts/flashbacks/moods of depression to go away.

You HAVE to tell someone or they won’t ever go away. I know you don’t want to tell your mother, but you must. It won’t ever go away if you don’t. And therapy is good, I know you don’t want to see one but therapist’s can help so much. You must tell someone my dear, to get better. Act on it as soon as you can, getting raped by your father, well it’s never something that someone can live through life with on their own.
-JaneDoe

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