Here’s the this-boy-is-stonedead-girl again. I can’t move on and I somehow don’t want to. Why don’t I want to? I’m so.. stuck with him, with this story. My heart is virtually chained to all this, so is my mind. I thought time could heal this, but it’s almost 2 years already. It just won’t stop hurting, it always comes up again & everything, every look, every smell, everything I do reminds me of him. It tears me apart. I often wonder what’s wrong with me, if I’m clinically depressed or something. Then I notice that I’d be perfectly okay if he just was here.. I don’t know how to help myself.

Go see a therapist. That is the only thing that can help you at this point because you are dwelling so much on the past. Therapy can help and do wonders for you. Ask friends if they know anyone who is good around your neighborhood.
-JaneDoe

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